| No more failed attemps...something had to be done!! |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|11:04 am] |
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| |  confused | ] |
Jas: Mucho fun today, still confused...talkin to chris, maybe he can clear things out for me a bit.
emwriterdude [11:03 AM]: that sounds good
emwriterdude [11:03 AM]: like sex
emwriterdude [11:03 AM]: go eric |
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| Confusion and perfection collide |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|10:22 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hellogoodbye-call n' return | ] |
Jas: Friday was a mix of confusion and perfection. I talked to Brittany about it and she tried to give me advice but i can't go through with it. I just can't. I wish i was able to take chances and just do things without thinking about the consequences much. Sometimes things work out better that way. I talked to fakingo and he pretty much didnt give me any advice but answered all of the questions i had for him and i also talked to otto but he wasnt much help because he's a hardass who shows no feelings unless he's heavily drunk at a frat party. Brittany tried to help, and i guess she did, kinda. She just says "do what feels right"...so...i'll do it!!..i think.... yes! yes i will! I'll do it....at 1:37 pm! That's an excellent time! Thanks empire records!!!!! =D
oh crap.....zach's leaving the 18th....fuck....ill have to postpone my plans for another day at 1:37
sigh..
Oliver's finally home! Him and dad are moving things around so i have to go soon. Meh.
Final words: johnny depp and nick's deli |
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| i have pretty eyes too...right? =( |
[Jun. 3rd, 2005|09:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  oh so tired... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Creeper Lagoon-Dear Deadly | ] |
Jas: So ive been lookin like a retard these past few days..all pale and bleh. I think it's the lack of sleep. I can always blame it on tha. I feel dead and all blah. My dad's been talkin about going to colombia this summer. I know this is all bullshit 'cause we're def. not going to colombia so i can get raped by some fuckin guerrilla ppl and then be held for fuckin ransom. That country's economic situation is fuckin ridiculous, i can't believe it. Im scared of going on tha 9 hr. trip to Esmeraldas, and Cali/Tumaco are worst than that. Plus, if we go anywhere this summer, that means i'll spend my sweet 16 in the freezing cold, and even though i'll b with my friends, it'll just b like this yr and ppl will just forget, so i rather spend it somewhere that even though ill b lonely except for being with Marisol and her friends and the club's ping pong table, i wont b in the freezing cold. I doubt we'll go for xmas, so i hope we got for carnival.
Anyways, i stayed afterschool finishin a test, which took me about a period or so and then just tried to do something for the world's fair by doing rebel signs tha said "viva la revolucion" and "abajo batista" with pink signs, the Sue made me a slopp "pamela" sign wen she was finger painting...i'll treasure it forever, hehe. I stil wonder who is gonna do the cooking? Oh boy, we're doomed. |
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| reality t.v is finally entertaining... |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|08:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hombres g-te quiero | ] |
Jas: I never liked to see people eating raw animal genitals, or seeing mum's get exchanged, and never really found it entertaining seeing a high school reunion or a bunch of liddle brats being chased by their nanny, but the Beauty and the Geek show is hilarious..so far. I dun think imma watch it again though, cause i can predict whats gonna happen and its just plain stupid, but mildly amusing. Tonight's episode was hilarious but the cutest guy got voted off so dats it for the show. He reminds me of another dork i know, i just can't remember who...maybe..JUST maybe...
Today was Lisa's graduation. We went to this really nice italian place and the owner sang opera for us... :D
Afterwards Lisa was just talkin to Ibraham or "boo boo" and raquel so i just sat aside and listened to whatever she had in her iPod. After listening to some random stuff then i went ahead and listened to Ludacris and then me and my sister started singing "area codes" in the subway. LOL!!!! Then i searched for more stuff in her iPod and she had the greatest hits of "hombres G" omg!!! :D The song "te quiero" just puts a smile on my face..like this :D Que mal que dedicarle una cancion a una chica o cantarsela y tocarla en la guitarra ya no esta de moda. I wish it was...if it was, "te quiero" seria la cancion perfecta para que un chico me la cante. lol....i dream alot.
nighty night! |
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| Snap! Crackle! Pop! |
[May. 30th, 2005|01:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ...FINALLY!!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Greenday-basket case | ] |
 | You scored as Mermaid. Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid.
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What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
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Yesterday was so great! :D I went to Shoshana's and we went to get her hair done and now she looks like natalie portman in the movie "closer" (very sexxy)..i wish i could cut my hair short...and dye it pink.
Anyways, after that we found out tha the guys were going upstate, we got upset, blah blah blah and me and shoshana exchanged some harsh truthful words and then felt better (at least i felt a bit better knowing im not alone in this). We got to see them, and i met one of their friends named john. They had to go right away, but then it turned out that zach could stay, so i finally had a chance to hang out with him, but then again i was with shoshana. I felt so bad wen she said "go with him" 'cause this has happened to me before and i had always hated it wen my friend went off with her boyfriend after we had made plans. Even though she said it was ok i still feel like i should say sry.
After the guys left (james, james's dad and john), me and zach got ice cream and went to the park. We hung out while watchin the cute liddle doggies play around, speshully this incredibly dumb one which tried to fit two balls in his mouth (dun be pervs). Anyways, then i was late to go home but i needed to say bye to shoshana and that meant being more late so i asked zach to come to 86th st with me to catch my bus, but he ended up coming to I.S with me and came over and met my parents. Of course, they thought i had just met up with him when the bus stopped, but they dun need to know the truth. We hug out, went to get some movies, got something to drink in 7-eleven and went bak home to watch "without a paddle" but since he left as soon as we got to the third seen, he'll never find out if dan, tom and jerry ever found the D.B Cooper's treasure. HAHAHA!!
My aunts and otto are coming since we're having a bbq and its so hot, i feel like im just gonna wet my hair and make it curly, just for today and tomorrow. Yay!!! I hope mum doesnt get used to the idea of me with curly hair and decides i should go to school lookin like tha...ewww.
Im pretty shure i wont have any depressing entries for a while. Shoshana, Josh and Melinda helped me so much, i feel like everything they say makes sense. I wish i could b just as useful to them as they are to me... :D
Anyways, must go close the curtains, take a shower, and find some decent looking summer clothes that don't have suns and monkeys and flowers from aeropostale. I need to go shopping.... rawr! |
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| FITZ AND FUCKIN SPAZES! |
[May. 28th, 2005|10:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  OMFG!!! | ] |
JAS: OMFG!!!! PLASTILINA MOSH, KINKY, AND JD NATASHA R GONNA PLAY IN THE PARK FOR FREE ON AUGUST 5TH AND 7:30!!! HOLY FRICKIN' SHIT!!!! IM FLIPPLIN' OUT, MAN!!! THIS IS LIKE, THE BEST NEWS EVER! HOLY FLIPPLIN' SHIT! AAAAHHH!!!!!! OH BOY, OH BOY, OH BOY!!! |
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| Si tu te vas, mi cariño mio, quien me va curar el corazon partido? |
[May. 28th, 2005|06:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  meh..life COULD b better | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Alejandro Sanz-quiero morir en tu veneno | ] |
Jas: currently listening to alejandro sanz nonstop. This man is part of the reason why i am such a depressed moron. I should really stop listening to his stupid emo music, but i am addicted. I have been stressed out since god-knows-when and everything has been built up inside of me until yesterday wen eric said the most stupidest thing for me to get upset about, and yet i broke down and started crying like a maniac and this didnt compare to the night when i found out about my dear friend's secret. I was mortified then, yesterday night i could barely get a sentence out. I called shoshana because i needed to talk to someone about anything BUT wha was bothering me so i could keep my mind off of it, but since i couldnt stop crying, my voice cracked and she talked it out of me. Then josh asked wha was wrong in gym and since tha talk we had on our walk to 86th st. it seems like our experiences are very much alike, but he's been through all of tha before me, so at least i have someone who can tell me wats coming up and so forth. But today i felt so useless. After shoshana being able to calm me down, i wasnt able to do the same for her today. I mean, i think i was equally upset as her since my pictures also got stolen but i had no more tears left inside me since yesterday night. Sometimes wen it comes to helping my friends, ok..not sometimes, but ALL the time, im pretty useless since just seeing my friends upset makes me just as sad and then instead of one person, u have two ppl crying their asses off.
Today was the first time in two months or so since i had chest pains. It hurt like fuck! I was going up the stairs and i couldnt breathe, my last two tears for the day dropped and i ran to the water fountain to get something to drink and wet my face. It's usually stress that brings tha up..or asthma. I guess today just wasnt my day. Yesterday was sooo perfect and today was soo crappy. I hope this pattern means tha tomorrow it'll be much better and ill get to see madagazcar and hang out and shtuff.
Ill leave u with some lyrics, which obviously none of u will understand..
"Quiero morir en tu veneno"
Tu y yo en mi habitación,
la oscuridad nuestra canción
y ya soy felíz.
Eres la inspiración;
tú creas y eres creación,
eres odio y querer.
Ven, te daré todos mis sueños
que vivo de ilusiones
y así no sé vivir.
Si aunque no quiera pienso en ti
el fuego en que me quemo
quiero morir en tu veneno,
beberlo de tu piel y mi piel.
Me pierdo en la realidad,
tu luz me guia hacia el soñar;
te busco, mi amor.
Tú, tan perfecta, solo tú,
producto de mi imaginación;
por tí pierdo la razón.
ven a romperme de deseo,
quiero morir en tu veneno,
sin ti no se vivir
que sufro mas sin tu sufrir,
quemame en tu fuego
quiero morir en tu veneno,
beberlo de tu piel.
Si, tápame los ojos
y dame de beber
antes que salga el Sol;
si, sálvate la vida
pero hazlo de una vez.
Ven, te daré todos mis sueños
que vivo de ilusiones
y así no sé vivir.
si aunque no quiera pienso en ti
y el fuego en que me quemo
quiero morir en tu veneno,
beberlo de tu piel y mi piel. |
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